THEE OTHER SIDE OF (HER)

It was around New Years last year. I could never forget how the blistering air cut through me like butter. We went to your coworker’s New Year’s party. Unfortunately that night didn’t go as planned because hotel security threw everybody out.

“I'm sorry, it wasn’t supposed to be like this”, you said that over and over, it got a little bit annoying. You apologized repeatedly because you thought you wasted my time. Little did you know I was so happy to be around you. I guess you didn’t see that, you only saw mistakes that night.

We went out later that month to make up for New Years. It was to a book store that had a nice coffee shop and friendly service.

The moment we sat down....your vibe made an abrupt left.

Perfect just what I needed...

Why now, why here? We knew each other for so long, so why now ? All it took was a split-second of eye contact to know that my night would end in regret. I wanted to leave that place without you. Leave you behind me, and move forward.

Every time we made eye contact your eyes fled. Flustered and afraid they hid from me. I honestly did not listen to a word you said that night, those eyes screamed everything I needed to know. They had way more volume than the words you were fumbling to say when I asked you questions like, “what have you been focusing on”.

"This girl is ridiculous, I can’t believe she’s behaving this timid" I thought. After I knew you for so long, you acted like that was the first time we met. The first time we spoke. The first everything.

I admit I messed up in college, but I changed, and I swore it.

I was ready...

Ready for you...

Ready for us...

But you didn’t know who I was anymore...

And I didn’t know you either...

*please read the second part, THEE OTHER SIDE OF (HIM)